Fun times, sad times, moving on times.

I guess I will start with the fun times.   Tessa has been having problems with her expanders for her teeth lately.   The fun part of this is watching her try to talk with both the top and bottom ones in her mouth.   It is not so easy to keep the top one in we are finding.    Twice now it has came loose and we have had to run into the orthodontist to have it glued back in.   Again this week it happened.   It really has made a difference in her teeth.   It is amazing us how it is moving her teeth around and right now it looks like she will have plenty of room in her mouth for all her teeth to fit comfortably.

Sad times.   Since Ms. Linzi is no longer at our house, this has to come up in our home study update.   Our placing agency is willing to go above and beyond for us in the situation of my cancer treatment, BUT not having a child in our home that China placed with us is something else.   Don't even get me started.   China flat out lied to us about Linzi and where she is mentally and/or academically.   She isn't even on the scales academically!   However, our agency who we used to bring her home said that we should have been prepared for the worst since her diagnosis was brain abnormality.   Well that is not her diagnosis!   And if it was the diagnosis then they should have been a little less over the top telling us she was on target developmentally.  Ugh!!

Moving on times.   Even though we have not received the final word...we know it is coming.    They are going to tell us that we are Stick a fork in it....D.O.N.E.   We will never be allowed to adopt from China again.   Even though it was them who lied to us, it will be us who will not be allowed to adopt again.   Even though we brought Linzi home and found her a better than good home.   We will not be allowed to adopt from China again.  Even though most families want infants or toddlers as young as possible with minor special needs we are done.    Even though in 3 and 1/2 years this little girl we want to bring home will age out of the system and no longer be eligible for adoption we are done.   So on her 14th birthday they will tell her Surprise!!  You will now have to stay in China the rest of your life and find a job or live on the street and find something to do to put food in your tummy.

Somehow it just doesn't seem right.